It's so nice to get home early on Wednesdays. I've been a little moody and stressed at work lately and it's probably better if I spend less time there. I do love my job, but in the summer it's easy to get overly wrapped up in everything.
Speaking of traveling, it amazes me that we'll be hitting the road ourselves again soon.. less than 2 weeks til we arrive in Athens.
I'm trying to be positive but I've still got really mixed feelings about this trip. I lose control whenever we go to Greece. I don't have my own schedule, have to be ready to go out and look perfect at a moment's notice. I feel I'm being judged by everyone.. I know some of them are my own personal hang ups, but I guess I still have a lot of issues with the "cultural differences." I have yet to go to Greece and be able to stay completely comfortably "me" while I'm there. I suppose the closest I came was the first trip in '01 when Costas brought me to meet his family for the first time, and I think it's because I didn't know any better. I was really into beading and I scoured the bead shops and made a bunch of bracelets. I was making a bracelet as we stood in line to get the ferry back from Mykonos. And I didn't think a thing of it.
When I was in grade school I used to make friendship bracelets. I had a neon green floss box that I brought with me everywhere and no matter what everyone else was doing, I'd be making bracelets. I guess I've always been good at entertaining myself...
In 7th grade, we moved to a house across the street from my grandparents. It was August and I was about to start at a new school (I switched from Catholic to public school). My cousin lived on the same block and I remember the day that I went to go meet all the neighborhood kids. As I was leaving my grandparents' house, my grandpa put his hand on my floss box and told me to leave it at home.
I think about this memory a lot and maybe he was right. At the time I didn't know how to float between different social circles. That's something I didn't learn until college and afterwards. Now I can do it, but we all still have our comfort zones. If I know I'm going to be alone for any period of time or not engaged in some activity, I still always bring something with me. People who can't entertain themselves tend to get bored and whiny. Making things keeps me calm and relaxed. Of course I love sharing crafty thoughts with other crafters, and spending time crafting in a group is one of the best activities I can imagine, but I haven't yet found those experiences in Greece. I have a feeling my whole attitude towards Greece will change if I do.
*photos are of New Chitose Airport outside of Sapporo.